mirror

And as i stand again by the mirror
i see you staring back
an empty soul devoid of light
the familiar surroundings of black

You didnt recognize me in the mirror
as we stared with words unsaid
you looked like a broken man
whose heart would never feel again

i quietly watched the dust around the mirror
the copper rust seeping through
for through this impervious frame
your dark reflection beamed true

For there you were in front of me
stood an uninspired man
who stared on to the world beyond
i have forgotten who i am


-3am

expire

A useless hope
a fervent kiss
a hasty promise
whats amiss?

A quick hug
a benovelent stare
as his hands touch
whats not to share

A quick skim
a step back
Shoulder to shoulder
His advances slack

Your fingers curl
your thighs tense
as you both breathe out words
without any sense

Late night calls
shared giggles
hopeless anticipation
as hearts wrestle

It shouldnt be true
yet you deny
what cant be done
shouldnt be left untried

You play with my heart
my soul, my desire
yet here i am not whole
offering you everything dire

Accept me damn it
before you set me on fire
because your touch already sends me ringing
im about to expire

Im going to go out there
smoke a thousand cigarettes
burn my lungs
and breathe out my existence
yet itll be nothing
nothing to your accusations
your betrayal
Your trust
thats just left me staggering
i cant breathe
Can you feel that damn it
i cant fucking breathe because i gave my all
gave my all and expected to be loved
Atleast cigarettes do their job
you as a friend? Never did.

What is home lord
when home doesnt exist?