Jealousy is genuinely a dark dark feeling. Its this ugly dark venemous snake in the pits of my stomach that coils itself and restricts my breathing. I open my mouth to take deep breaths of air, to allow more air, trying not to think of you with your best friend
I imagined him kissing you and holding you tenderly, the way ive seen him before
The snake hisses
I keep thinking of how he would lean down to caress your cheeks
I feel sick
I think of how youd wake up in bed and look at him like hes the only one who loves you
The way you used to look at me
And now im full blown crying
The snake has taken control and it is slithering around my body , giving me goosebumps, taking away my breath
Because now i know i wasnt the one
I never was the one
And i need to learn how to let go
Closure
Im still searching for closure
