Jealousy

Jealousy is genuinely a dark dark feeling. Its this ugly dark venemous snake in the pits of my stomach that coils itself and restricts my breathing. I open my mouth to take deep breaths of air, to allow more air, trying not to think of you with your best friend

I imagined him kissing you and holding you tenderly, the way ive seen him before

The snake hisses

I keep thinking of how he would lean down to caress your cheeks

I feel sick

I think of how youd wake up in bed and look at him like hes the only one who loves you

The way you used to look at me

And now im full blown crying

The snake has taken control and it is slithering around my body , giving me goosebumps,  taking away my breath

Because now i know i wasnt the one
I never was the one

And i need to learn how to let go

Closure
Im still searching for closure