Take care of her for me

I know we're never going to be young forever and in love the way we are now
Because our youth is never eternal

This world is not eternal
And just as the night itself comes to its ends

I believe in our love. And i believe in us . I believe in emily .
And after all. All I have right now is her and my love for her.  My love for us.

And as long as our love stands as strong as the ground i stand upon , no matter the cracks and the occasional bumps. I stand by her.

Come what may.
So God if you're out there
If you believe in me and hear this
Keep her safe for me

-3am

Im beautiful

My wrinkles were like bird claws around my eyes, showing up at the smallest smile.
And she simply smiled and told me I looked perfectly okay.

My eyebrows hadn't been threaded nor had i shaven my upper lips, and she simply smiled and told me I was pretty.

My stomach rolled around the sides of my pants and my waist was simply too big for me to be comfortable in.
She simply put her hands around me and held me, whispered to me that im gorgeous

When I stood naked in front of her as she held me at an arms length, observing every flaw i had , ever fear laid out in front of her.
She looked at me with tearful eyes and said im perfect

And when I danced around her , ice skated and flaunted my body. She gave me a smack on the very butt i refuse to look at, and told me I was sexy .

And when we held each other, chest to chest , looking into each other's eyes. She cried to me

"How could you not see your beauty? How could you not see yourself? How beautiful you are?"

I simply looked at her. Looked at the girl who still is the most beautiful human i have met to this day. With her eyes , her warm smile, her ever changing moods and her tendency to comfort immediately . She was my beautiful girl. My woman.

"I never knew I was beautiful till I met you."

Hurt me

And how is it
That I let you hurt me
Again and again without fail

And how is it that i let you hurt me
When I was high and low
No matter the night skies
I slept fretfully so

And why is it that you hurt me
With sticks and matches
That burn me alive

Why is it that you hurt me With words of all things
Knowing words are my greatest weakness
Even if it's from a screen
A thousand miles inbetween
Yet here i am shuddering
Trembling
Begging

What have I done wrong
When I gave you my all
Where did i go wrong with my all
When you left me with nothing

When i found love
you decided to walk

So walk
Walk away
I'll stay where I am
I'll stay where I feel best
Where I feel loved

Because people walk away
Give them 3 years they said
And see if anyone ever stays

I gave you 5
Yet look at us now
You spite me
Put me down
And enjoy my pain
and walk back just to start this cycle again

Maybe I love too easily
And i love hard
Did i love you too much friend?
Did I care too much ?
Or did I not understand you after these 5 years .

A natural shadow hovering behind
All the damn time
That's what I am right?

It's okay

The darkness is a old friend
Except im not exactly in its arms
I'm in a place where the skies are blue
And the sun shines here and here
And despite some cloudy skies and rain
I have love
That reminds me . Tells me to look up
Walk forward
And let you walk away

So go

Why is it that you hurt me so?

-3am