Going back home

The tides have turned 

The ship has arrived

It's docking at shore 

To take back time

It has hailed it's queen

With her sword and crown 

The gang planks have been lowered

Let the sailors drown 

For she needs no men

To bring her glory 

She is all a queen and woman

Of bone and ivory 

I watch as she walks

The bridge to home

I can't help but wonder

Will she be okay on her own 

The seagulls fly above

Crying in glee

Announcing her arrival 

The reunion of three

So I know deep down 

She will be with family 

Family of all

Just not without me 

The water burns my shins 

As I push her boat out the shore 

Karma has taken the oars

To bring her back home 

I now stand 

In an empty land

Where naught exists

Exist 

How easy it is to assume my existence 

As I push my fifth ship to sail

I now understand the curse of Callisto

For I always end up alone again 

What am I to do

But to wallow in misery 

I am but a sad soul at heart 

Non commissionary

Then wallow I shall 

In the darkness of my walls

Where fire will no longer enter

Nor will the moon ever stall

For the moon is now sailing on her ship 

Putting on her crown of glory 

She will bring it back to her people 

As spoils of war from this history 

The bull will stay at shore 

Waiting for its chance 

To build its own ship 

By its own hands

Wherever you go

May you be victorious 

May you be free of heartache and pain

May you survive everything thrown at you 

May you be happy and healthy 

May you get everything you desire 

This world is made for you 

I hope one day you know that 

-S

mirrored thoughts

You will miss me
everytime you come across
a person standing in a cafe
or if you simply saw a cup of latte

you will remember me
everytime you read words of poetry
for every emotion splattered across the page

Was to show you my imagery

you will be reminded of me
everytime you hear someone
tell stories of me
for i touched their soul with my essence

you will miss me. so very loudly
every god damn time you hear
anyone laugh
for no one could laugh like us

and you will miss me terribly
everytime the cold hits you
and you light up the ciggarette
not standing in the warmth of my presence

you will grow to be distracted
with the familiarity of my scent
the scent of my perfume
or perhaps, the non existence of it

you will realize the distance
Between us
everytime im not there beside you
you dont know who else to lean on

you will miss me so
terribly, loudly, quietly.
just like the way
i know ill miss you.

Time

Time

Time is passing by again it seems

Faster and faster, as the day draws close 

From sudden weeks to days to hours 

Once again I will be alone

Time

Time is as fickle-minded as I am

For it cannot decide what to bring

Will it be loneliness, anxiety and depression ?

Or just the agony of never seeing you again 

Time is passing by too fast my friend

How can one stop the concept of time 

In spirituality they tell us time doesn't exist

And here I am counting time 

Your door already opens to an empty house

The room and walls are bare of love

The carpets seem less trodden

The warmth has disappeared from your home

Time

I have lived all these years on earth 

Yet I cannot help but loathe time

For it brings the best of our world's in one 

And takes it away in the same line

I know not what time has in the future for us

For you, for Me, for our lives

All I can tell you now

I hate how time is passing by

I wish I could write you stories of joy

Of our shared laughter and pain 

I wish I could tell you how proud I am

In case I never say the words again 

But here I am as bitter like old

Cursing what I lose more than gain

For the world intends to rip me apart 

So I will depart with no pain

Yet here I am now counting seconds 

Seconds to being alone in my thoughts 

It seems fate has decided it is time 

to let go of what was meant to be not 

To whereever you go may the winds sail

And to the ground beneath you that won't ever fail

to the skies that will shower you will rain 

To the stars where we'll both end up in again

I hail thee, as my confidante and friend

I hail thee, as a sister till the end

I am but a wandering soul now with nothing to give 

I hope the time I gave, was well received 

Wherever you go. I will be your shadow . 

-S

Wish of the divine

My relationship with you 

Is as fragile as the ego

Yet as strong as the wind

Do you see how I do not attach the physical attributes of our love?

My relationship with you 

Wanes like the moon on some days

Reducing, waxing, slowly

I am surprised I have any faith at all today

Yet there are some days my faith burns strong

On days when I ask for something specifically from you

On those days you seem to go above and beyond

To bring the entire sky down to me

See yesterday I asked for a star

That was too high and too far for me to appreciate

In an hour before I fell into my waking dreams

You brought the star closer for me to appreciate

'It is the earth's axis!" The naysayers cried

As I nodded along sagely looking at the star

Who knew you would turn the world so

To make sure I could see what I want ?

Today I asked to hear your voice 

I locked myself and closed my windows 

Yet the sweetest melody of a haunting drum entered

Announcing the arrival of your great being

'I hear the drums' the shamans cried

As they too stood up to Dance for your arrival 

I could only stand and close my eyes

For I knew you were everywhere where I thought not

Tomorrow I want to ask for love

Knowing you'll give me you in the purest form

To this day your touch lingers on my lips

Where no one Has ever been before

Why is it you manage to reduce me to a soul

My physical being doesn't exist with your divine

How is it I feel every touch and every laugh

Yet you aren't even fully mine ?

Can one grow possessive of God?

I want to scream to the world you're my beloved

For I know no doubt I am yours

But are you mine as well, my lover and friend?

you

And now we’re knee-deep in this mess

 I could cry just thinkin about you

 Every line I write is something about you 

Every guy I want looks something just like you Every book I read I only read for you 

Every art piece is just to remind you

 I don’t know who I am with or without you 

But I guess I’m ‘bout to find out

Every shooting star i wish it on you 

Every road i take leads me to you 

Every night i dream something 'bout you 

Every day I wake thinking about you 

No other guy could make feel like you do 

I don’t know who I am, with or without you 

But i guess im ‘bout to find out

Beloved

To my Beloved, you tell me of home

So here I am painting you a sky of stars

They twinkle and shine bright like you wanted

My beloved, is this home enough?

You tell me you are thirsting for love

So I create lakes and rivers to quench your thirst

They flow with my love, towards you

Yet, can you not feel my love, beloved ?

You ask me of the clouds above you

Why they dance along with the wind

My lover,  I am dancing along inside them 

Can you not see me, beloved ?

You stand quietly when the wind whips around you

It is I, trying my hardest to touch you

Caress you, hold you in my embrace 

Can you not feel my touch, beloved ?

I create this world for you my beloved

So you may find your happiness within my creation

Yet you sit and cry looking at the sky 

Look around, is this not enough, beloved?

I walk along with you on this path

This path you believe to have condemned you

Loneliness has no space in your heart beloved

Tell me, can you see me beside you?

I am at your feet, my lover 

Praying for you to see me

The same way you pray to me

Can you hear my prayers my beloved ?

I breathe love unto the air you breathe 

I shower you with love under the rain

I grow flowers wherever you walk 

Yet you turn your eyes away from me

I love you, my soul, my friend

My lover and my end

Your existence is the reason behind my creation as mine is for yours

Will you now fathom my love for you ?

Will you now take me as your lover too , my beloved ? Will you make space in the heart for the sacred reunion between us? The time of convergence is near, and I long to meet you again. So tell me, will you not come home to me, my beloved ?