friendships are perhaps the weirdest term to label a group of people that regularly hang out with each other, share a part of their minds, their souls, and their bodies . No not sex. Hugging, having a possessive arm around a shoulder, all these physical attributes in a friendly relationship.
But its very hard to make a friendship work, especially between two people, who are their own characters.
when two friends become closer, they start to open up themselves to each other more, sharing a part of themselves with the other, hoping to understand and be understood in turn. It eases those with the raging souls of anger and loneliness, whilst it fuels the other with a more realistic eye of the cruel world around them.
its a very curious thing indeed.
which is when i realized that the friendship between two best friends, are like fire. Together they both create the most brightest of flames, that burns and flickers through the night, bringing in warmth and comfort to those around them, and protecting themselves from the world. But they need each other to be the fire.
This is where the one friend is the spark of the relationship, who keeps it alive. whilst the other is the one who keeps the fire burning, in other words holds the relationship steady and ongoing, making sure not to flicker out completely no matter what. without the sparks, the fire wouldnt start, yet without the ability to keep it burning, the sparks would never catch on fire.
and i realize this is the relationship i feel like im in right now in perhaps the most closest friend i have made in my whole life.
and it terrifies me.
the fact that i have actually finally depended and gotten rid of some of the burden in my mind on somoene else is a scary thought to someone insecure like me.
but its almost to the fact that i need her in a way.
For shes the one whos adding sparks to my life. she keeps me alive in the mind . she oozes positive energy and radiance and looks at the world so differently compared to me
and i feel like im keeping the fire going between us. for though the major differences, as were 95% opposites of each other, i cant help but just be a loyal friend she could always depend on, and make sure i watch over her too.
she fixes me emotionally. whilst now shes becoming more open socially.
physically i believe were both fucked with our insecurities.
but i think were going to get to a stage where we are happy with everything.
its a long wait
but as long as i have the sparks to keep my life alive, and as long as i hold our friendship steadily with utmost loyalty and honesty.. i think itll work out
and im looking forward to it.
i feel content.
-3.A.M
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