That kind of girl

My name is Semanti
I work for a fast food outlet and i have recently lost the spark to keep on working there. I love the people, i love the benefits, and I've learnt more than one could possibly learn in a job I have been working in for almost 3 years now.

My life is an unplanned messy yet perfect mess

My parents had it set I'd be studying a 'good course' in university from young,made sure to send me to the most expensive schools to get the best education possible, and still have me grow up unspoiled and simple.

I like hoodies and jeans over tights and blouses
As a girl
I prefer my hair tied up always in its particular messy bun because I still can't bun it properly
Makeup isn't my thing nor is skincare as its not in my list of things I should do during the day,before or after bed

So you're looking at me
And asking
What kind of girl are you?
And honestly?
I'm that type of girl .
The type who goes out without looking at the mirror to see how I look because in the end, this is who I am. I don't need to look nice for myself when I know who I really am. I'm that type of girl that can sleep all day and yet stay awake for days too. I procrastinate, I forget meals, and I even forget to drink water for days. Yes I'm that crazy.
But im also that type of girl that loves books with a hidden passion. Romance may not be my forte but it doesn't mean I say no to it. I love thinking of characters with their own personality, attatch them to me or anyone else close to me, and just full on develop stories in my head with everything plotted out. I have an unhealthy obsession with always having my favorite Adidas bag littered with food wrappers, pens, and scraps of paper because I write. I have notepads full of scribbles, drawings, and words that have make sense to a kindergartner more than me sometimes. I have the cliche doctor scribble, slanted, cursive, with only few being able to read it. But am i a doctor?
No

I'm a girl. A human. Just like you and I, there are millions out there like us. But we have been stereotyped. Girls are supposed to like pink, boys are supposed to stay away from pink because it's feminine. What's feminine? The bright colors in it? Or because it's been forced for girls to be accepted as a female unlike those girls that wear the stereotype boy color of Blue.
 Blue.
A dark yet vibrant color with many shades. What's manly about it? That it's all mysterious and gloomy like your typical boy? Therefore making pink a loud and obnoxious judgement for girls to be as such.

Excuse me

Because then I don't fit in your category of stereotypes.

Because I personally love red. Pink is way down the list and dark colors have always been favored.
What's wrong with having my own choices?
To wear whatever I want
And actually not be looked down upon?

Or the fact that we all seem to be living in a constant battle between the right and wrong. Who is the one to judge us.

Why are you letting them judge you.

Because the size of your body doesn't define the heart inside. The number of tattoos on the girl doesn't say anything about the girl who helps out the homeless every Saturday. And the piercings on his tongue does not show how rebellious he is when he volunteers at the animal shelter every holiday and does it without being thanked. No one knows this about them. They look at people like this and immediately put them into a particular stereotype.

Does that mean I'm a perfect person for not judging?
No
Because in all honesty I'm being a hypocrite when I label people too without realizing my thoughts pathways.

But it doesn't mean i force my thoughts upon those not willing to hear


So to all the people that shaped society
And to those who judged wrongly
And have changed minds
For generations



You guys suck

Because I'm that type of girl
Who would survive the bricks you throw at me
Cry at 3 am in the morning
But still wake up with a smile on my face

Come at me




-3A.M