It gets better

"Im sick of you moping around Ashanna! im sick of you pretending that everyone around is either dead or about to die anyway! Because theyre not, not yet, and youre not dead either. As much as you want to Ashanna the memories of Tenshi will never leave you. Why do you keep trying to erase the remnants of his very existence? He wont go away in your mind if he really meant that much to you. Are you telling me that perhaps you are thinking you never really loved him the way you think you did Ash?"

Ashannas eyes widened in fury as she snapped her head up to meet Romanov's equally fierce glare, as she slowly took a step closer towards him, trembling with her emotions. "how dare you" she whispered, slowly coating each worth with contempt. "How dare you doubt my love, when you have no idea yourself? You have no idea what its like losing someone, and waking up everyday with emptiness all around you. How dare you mock my love Romanov?" Ashanna opened her mouth to say more but was prevented when Romanov grabbed her jaws and roughly pulled her head towards him, preventing any voice from escaping through her trembling bones.

"God damn it woman this pain youre experiencing will never leave you the way you want it to. It will throb, it will scar, and it will stay, reminding you of what you went through. We live with this pain Ashanna just like youre going to live with it now. We get help, we love, and then we lose. This is the cycle of pain and to help you get through it, everyone needs atleast someone, to help them through. And for once, i want you to let me in, like you let him. Let me be the one who makes you laugh when everyone is too busy trying to make money to be richer. Let me be the one who wipes your tears even if it was caused by the silly disney movies you watch anyway. Let me in Ashanna. Im no Tenshi but i am always going to be your Romanov."

Romanov loosened his hold on her jaw as he lightly skimmed his fingers over her cheeks, wiping away the tears that had broken loose the moment he had confessed his true intentions. Feeling the powerful electricity now sparked by his words, he crushed her to his chest, feeling her heartbeat pick up like his, as their hearts pumped faster. "Let me in Ashanna, because i can't bear to lose you to this madness. it gets better love. i promise you, it gets better."

The only thing that seperated these two broken souls then were but skin and bones, for their hearts had finally joined together as one.



-3am