Mother there's a side to me you don't know Different to the child with the smile in your photo, Made some decisions some wrong some right, now strangers call my number When I'm sleeping at night But they're sinners too And they'll only make me worse. Don't let me go And roll away like a penny down a hole in the road.

I wish i couldve said goodbye. I wish i did. But i didnt know. I didnt know

dear best friend

hey little one, have a seat
for all your mondays have been starting off bleak
i know its not much, but its the least i can do
because your William is too stupid to

I know life has been hard, and there has been no time
to sit and breath to even read my stupid rhymes
but Uni will stay, and work will always be a pain
and it will suck you out until you feel drained

But we will be here, through the thick and thin
worry no more, youre no sin
for what you are, and what youre going through
we understand, and will support you too

I wish i can explain all the words i want to say
For empty words on a page can still lead thoughts astray
after last night i wonder if i came out wrong
perhaps my words werent as strong

I want you to worry less about you and will
for that boy will stick through fucking thick and thin
he told me words such as 'how he couldve met you'
for you gave him a chance when some never even thought to

See i have no right to say anything about you two
but i care enough to let you listen to me too
whats been happening, and the way you to have been going on
slow down and understand, its not wrong

you may not have the time you want to give to him
when your shoulders and eyes are filled up to the brim
youre exhausted with juggling so many different boulders
hes too shy to tell you that he will always provide another shoulder

williams not going through what you are everyday
and hes struggling to tell you words he cant say
because he cant help but understand when words arent exchanged
for he knows youre trying but youre burdened

a length of a relationship should also not dictate a person like you
for its the happiness the relationship provides should matter to you
if you love him, and he loves you
dont let your wandering thoughts make you think if its the right thing to do

you both are dear to me, so i know i cant step over the line
but stress less about a relationship that will go fine
the future can never be expected, fuck we know with experience
so close your eyes and breathe, dont be so tense.

william will never be as romantic as I
so ill tell you some words he once told me a nigh'
to love someone like you was perhaps the best thing to happen to him
at times youre the light when his life is dull and dim

he said he will never understand how he got this girl
whos dedicated, amazing, and full of all worlds
with you he tastes love like no other
fuck i feel cheesy telling you the words of my brother

so if the idiot ever tells you i love you
and it doesnt sound as nice as it used to
club him in the head and remind him youre his girl
because to him, you are his whole fucking world.

because william wont ever say this to you
and because im the sidechick
ill take responsibility
if you want to hit anyone and call one of us stupid

i love you little kiddo

Semanti

distraught

Help end my life
help save my life
im paralysed
now give me the knife
i sing my names to the demons that are toxic
but ill make it
Im the guest
And my sins are worsening
so here's what you'll help me do
Let us count, 1 to 10
And should it be you fail
For end to 10, i shall fade
So set my soul on fire
Have no more plans for me
What have i become?

Im sorry





-1 PM

Let me tell you this

Let me tell you this
The easiest way i hate myself
Words unsaid and unheard
let me tell you about myself

Let me tell you my fears
I fear love above all
There is nothing else i shy away from
When people try and make me fall

Let me tell you my dreams
I dream more of the dead while i sleep
I dream of blood, tears and sorrow
Often times i stay awake to weep

Let me tell you my mind dear reader
Sometimes it feels like a noxious fume
Clouding my thoughts in its wake
Until i feel claustrophobic in every room

Let me tell you about my demons now
They are shadows that jump from walls to ceilings
When i least expect it they jump down to attack
Leaving me numb of any feeling

See during these times i call it desolation
for my mind is as still as the ocean
but just like the ocean the waves of memories surge
until i start drowning in my own notions

Let me tell you of happy thoughts
I just need a moment to find them
for they get buried deep within these waters
Just like this fucked up poem

Let me tell you now
How much i honestly hate myself
is that even plausible
when i have the world in my hands?

Why do i hate myself reader?
when i have friends and family in every breath i take
why do i have these thoughts
that now seem to make me fake?

i am honestly trying my reader
to show the world im fucking ecstatic
smiles are shared, laughs are exchanged
but deep inside im fucking dying

sometimes i stumble when im walking
because i cant

i cant do this


at times


i want to give up
so bad


i stay awake thinking of all the posibilities

i wont stay awake

for another sunrise

i wont see the way i make my friends cry in laughter


and these little things
give me hope

to see another day

but sometimes
when these very friends

find someone better than me

someone positive
someone brighter
stronger
someone beautiful
inside and out


i wonder where i will be

and thats when i realize

i dont think im okay


and its so hard
to tell someone


dont worry
im
okay



i am okay




arent i?





-3am

Why are the happiest people the saddest? Are they just showing emotions they wished they had?

if i told you

If i told you im waiting would you hear me?
if i told you im grieving would you see me?
if if i told you, oh lord i wish i told you
would you have loved me the way i loved you?